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Letting Go

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(Pictures from my walk yesterday)

If there is one thing that I am pretty good at, it is not over scheduling myself. When there are too many too dos on the list my brain seizes, anxiety sets in, I turn into Sargent Mom, and no body is happy. I know this about me. So, I try to plan accordingly.

Sometimes you just can’t avoid it. If I know this kind of day is coming and I don’t let the thought of it overwhelm me so I can think straight, I usually do as much prep work that I can. You know, do and extra load of laundry the day before if it can’t wait. If dinner is complicated and I can’t change it, I try to as much chopping and what not the night before. Things like that.

Well, today is one of those days. I did as much prep work that I could and knew in advance things would be a little crazy. Said major prayers that I wouldn’t say anything I would regret and just left the day up to God. If I had to miss an appointment because one went too long or if the kitchen was a total disaster, I would just have to let it go. I would do my best.

Napping – totally out of the question. Blogging – not today. Ha!

Should I be surprised? NO!

One of the things I need to work on in letting go. Just doing my best and leaving the rest up to God. It always works out if I do.

Today I ended up with a three hour break. Three hours! I got a restful nap, dinner ready to slide into the oven later, pictures uploaded, and a this blog post written.

I do still need to prepare for anticipated crazy days. However once I’ve done what I can I just need to let go and let it play out.

 

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It’s April!!

April is MY month. My name and also my birth month.

6 years ago (if I did my math right) I got tired of being sad on my birthday and decided to do something for myself that at that time I desperately needed. 2008 my Birthday Give-Away was born. Fast forward some years, and in 2013 (last year) I officially decided to move on. While I still enjoyed the give away part I didn’t need an excuse to sew or create any more.

For a few months now I have been trying to decide what to do this month. I don’t want to undo all my birthday loving progress and so something must be planned.

This year I have decided to force myself to go outside. I have been hiding in my house way to much this winter and with the lovely spring weather here more than not, I have no excuses and need to fix that bad habit. So, everyday, I am going to go outside. I’m not talking about the time I pack up Hollis in the car and take and pick up the kids from school. I’m talking about taking the time to BE outside and enjoy everything that I love about being there.

I am also taking this month to do some soul searching. I have some big and I mean BIG changes that need to happen in my life and I am absolutely sure that it is time to make them happen. Now! I have been working on things actively for these same 6 years but really there are things that I have been trying to understand most of my life. I feel like I have learned all that I can for now and just need to get to work and make things happen.

Enter this acorn.

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I was drawn to this acorn the first time I saw it. Just sitting in the tree while all the other acorns have long fallen or been plucked by squirrels from the tree. I would come out and check on it from time to time to see if it had finally fallen to the ground but it was always there. I started to think that this acorn was a metaphor for my life. Ha! But what? Hmmm. The acorn represents new life. It’s just sitting in the tree past it’s season. Hmm. Last month I found myself checking it almost daily to see if was still there. Yep it was. 

I came the conclusion that the metaphor was that I too was clinging on to a part of my life that was preventing me from progressing any further. I had everything I needed inside me but I just needed to get uncomfortable and let go.  

I watched it for a few days. Shook the branch. Wiggled it. Hmm. Sunday I was looking at it and just reached out and plucked it off.

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I was shocked I did it. I knew that the metaphor was complete. I had just made the decision to move forward and make the changes. I was ready to be uncomfortable and embrace whatever comes.

I know that I am ready and am actually pretty excited to explore some things this month.

About a week ago I had the thought that if I was going to let go of some things I need to have something to replace them. So for this month I am going to search out who I am. Not who I have been hiding behind but the person the Heavenly Father knows that I am and get to work on becoming who He knows I can become.

I’m not really sure what will happen this month but I know that I want to start by exploring this talk. (check it out) I’ll just have to see where it leads me.

 

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General Women’s Meeting

I just returned from attending the first time ever General Women’s Meeting with both my girls. What a blessing! To be honest, I didn’t realize there had been an announcement of a change to the annual Relief Society and Young Women’s broadcasts until yesterday but was trilled to be joined by not only Thisbe to a semiannual meeting but Bronwyn a well.

If you would like more information about the General Women’s Meeting see the link on the work announcement above and or this link to an interview of Sister Marriott.

Here are a few of my thoughts from the meeting

This gathering is GREAT!!

I am a  child of God. I am his daughter.

Christ will “Lead me, Guide me, Walk beside me, Help me find the way. Teach me all that I must do, To live with Him someday.”

As His daughters we all have a job to do. We are all needed.

Look to Mormon’s example of knowing who he is.

Look to the examples of great women

I am a daughter in the covenant.

“I will head not what the wicked may say, but the Lord alone I will obey”

I was feeling overwhelmingly (read tears) connected to the sisters present. Both in our meeting house but also all over the world. During one of the songs I thought about the fact that many of the women that I love were watching this meeting at the same time I was. My family and friends in Washington, and so many ladies I have known and loved in our travels with school and military. BYU, Huber Heights, Bothell/Kenmore, Turkey, Biloxi, and now in Lincoln, Nebraska. I could imagine them sitting beside me as we listened to the speakers and sang songs together side by side with our daughters. What a wonderful feeling.

You can find the conference and watch it yourself at LDS.org.

 

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photo curtesy of Whitney Jones

Isn’t this just a wonderful sight. All theses ladies came to join me for my birthday lunch. I love them all.

Each and every place I have moved I could probably have taken a picture just like this. A group of women I love. Ladies I feel comfortable calling on if I need some baking supplies, a baby sitter, a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on. Ladies who have taught me, served me, let me serve them, and just plain loved me for who I am. I don’t know what I would do without these women in my life.

I am so blessed and am excited to add to this long list of women I love with our next move to Nabraska.

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193 195 197 A few edits I did today from our trip to Vicksburg

 I had a few reminders today like the stack of packages that went to the post office today (thanks so much for getting your addresses to me so promptly. All packages went out today except two that will be hand delivered on that will ship out tomorrow.) and the remnants of crafting supplies that still need to be put away, but other than that my Birthday seems like the distant past. Not just YESTERDAY!!! Crazy. I guess I have simply moved on. I really enjoyed focusing on sewing and crafting last month but all the while I was desiring to work on my new hobby. Photography. I’ve got a class lined up starting next week and I am ready to learn. During the month I snuck into my crafting time and read a wonderful photography book called Photographing Your Children. It really got my gears turning on how I want to photograph my children and document their lives.

So, I’m not sure what is going to happen with this blog. I don’t have a plan at all. I really like visiting this space so we will have to see what happens.

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Made the Cut

 

Well, I have officially decided to not cut this blog out of my life. Didn’t know I was thinking about it? Well, I was. Since I am tired of feeling guilty about not posting here I decided to set a goal and write here weekly. I’ve found a two hour bit of time in my life, once a week, that if I am prepared I can sit and upload pictured and actually think about writing a blog post.

 

The sad thing though is the fact that nothing has been going on. I started a project a few weeks ago… but haven’t touched it since. No new pictures had been taken. Nothing. Well, one thing has been going on. We decided to homeschool Bronwyn this year for first grade. It has been going smoothly and because of it I have this 2 hours where I sit at a table waiting for her while she enjoys an awesome art class and PE. Hollis is still young enough to sleep through most of it and so my blogging time has been discovered, but what to talk about??? Hmm.

 

 

Knowing that I didn’t have much prepared to post about today I snapped a quick picture of Bron as we were leaving. Nothing exciting happening at the time but I love the fact that she was so proud of her stripy outfit. She was beaming anytime anyone noticed it today. People can be so nice to notice and say something.  So, since I couldn’t get the Wi-Fi working during my 2 hours I spent the time reading my camera manual (again) and playing in photoshop and am just blogging about it all tonight.

 

 

 

Here is the original and my favorite manipulations of the picture I snapped of Bron today.

 

 

 

Plastic Wrap (kinda creepy; just looking at it make it hard for me to breathe)

 

 

 

 

Gradient Map (not sure what that means)

 

 

 

Sketch Photocopy (my favorite)

 

 

Find Edges (very close second)

Well, thats all I’ve got for today. See you next week.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Clearing

Well hello there blog. It sure has been a while. While I’m at it, hello camera and hello sewing machine, I almost forgot I own you, let alone once loved you.

Never quite understood the whole baby fog term until now. It seems that a large portion of my life just faded away into the back ground. I know it is there but I just can’t see, feel, or remember why I once occupied my life with it. Well, I’m just starting to see it again. It’s still foggy but things are definitely clearing.

Don’t get me wrong, life is wonderful and uncomplicated right now.  It seems, without any forethought, I emptied my life of all the extras and have been enjoying the peace that this sort of purge brings. I am a little sad that I have not captured my growing baby’s littleness as I wanted. Sadly my camera has only come out a few times.

Here are a few milestones and favorites.

I’m also sad that I didn’t get his blessing outfit made in time (luckily Magnus’ still fit him. Barely) or that our summer is now over and it doesn’t even seem like it happened at all. I was shocked to realize that it is September.

But like I said, things are clearing. I feel the extras which I once enjoyed freely starting to enter my life again. Slowly.

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